Mood: So effin' confused and anxious
Listening to: Forever by The Ambassadors
Geez~ In this entry, I may end up labeling guys to mere stereotypical beings... but in the end you'll find out that I am just being logical.
I won't drop hints to who he is, but if every you're that someone who knows what I'm talking about - keep it that way. And maybe, just maybe... if HE is the one reading this - now you'll know why I've suddenly gone cold.
I first met this guy way back during my Freshman year. Yes, he is handsome and seems nice. But all those good facade crumbled right at my feet. Everything that I thought I knew about him (and what other people think about him) are changing in a very rapid pace. It just makes me want to ask, "What the hell have you done to yourself?"
The fact that I do like him in a way doesn't mean 'I am head over heels' with him. It just doesn't make any sense! A few months back, he was still nice and sweet; but just a few weeks ago... he starts to scare the hell out of me.
I know for a fact that he likes someone else (and is trying to court her, mind you) BUT why is he 'somewhat' flirting with me? At first, I felt that he was just being childish... but just recently did I think things over and thought that MAYBE he's trying to put an 'investment' in me (you know, like trying to win over me so that if ever that significant other crushes him to the ground he has me as his last resort).
At first, I was confused of his motives... then I started to get pissed when reality sinks in... and just last night, HE REALLY, REALLY SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME! For some strange way though, he is reminiscent of my ex-boyfriend from 2 years ago. *Geez, why do I always fall for the same kind of guy?*
Here's the deal:
He always says, 'I love you/I miss you';
He always hugs me from behind;
At times, he'll try to hold my hand;
When I'm pissed, he'll suddenly grab me to give a hug;
AND
(just last night)
He whispered something that I couldn't understand (but it sounded like a 4-letter word)
(And aside from these, there are a lot of things he did as well... but I won't write it down.)
The last one really scared me. My best guy friend told me to "Stay away from that guy or else he'll punch him right in the face" when he sees him. My other guy friend told me that "he is becoming sort-of s**ual with his actions... better push him off when you get the chance to."
Crap, I was supposed to be doing a lot of things at this very moment but I needed something to remove these things from my head. Maybe I really do have to follow my girlfriends on their single opinion...
"Play his game."